Wichita

Funny how when one relationship ends, someone from your past comes along “just in the nick of time”. Yesterday, I received a call from my ex (from many years ago) you can read the blog (Love Remembers When). It was a “nice” surprise to hear from him. He always had a way of knowing when something was wrong with me from a distance even if I never told him. He’s in Wichita now for 2 weeks until the 7th of July with the kids. It would be nice to see him and the kids. I miss the kids and now that they are grown and have kids of their own, I’m actually a “grandma”.

I’m thinking of taking the trip to go see them. We were very close as a family when we all lived together. I hesitate to visit, for the fear of me being weak and getting back with Keith. What we had was real and we were “married”. To leave was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life, but I knew I had to in order to save myself. I know in my heart that God didn’t set my path in life to be unhappy and being with him, I was emotionally unhappy. Maybe, he’s changed by now? It’s been so many years and when we talk on the phone, he doesn’t seem the same man I once knew. He actually sounds a lot less controlling and more at ease with things. Before he was very uptight and very controlling with me.

He’s is supposed to move here around the end of the year (since he lives in Hawaii), his job wants to transfer him here for a higher position in the company. He works for Boeing. He’s already high ranking there but he’s a perfectionist so I’m sure the job they want him to take will be an Executive Level job.

I’d like to go back to Wichita and see our house we bought, and see the kids, ya know… I’d like see the changes and who knows maybe secretly I’d like to see if he changed as well. Maybe…my life’s path really did begin in Wichita. I guess I just took a different path along the way. Now, maybe it’s time to find out if where I belong is indeed…with Wichita.

Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki