Moving into a new place (in Annapolis) 2 days after my birthday, moving out of my hotel, moving along in school (currently have a “B” in my class), moving on with my job, and most importantly…moving on with my life.
It wasn’t long along I was unsure of where my life was going, but lately I’ve rediscovered myself. I guess we do that in life. People change all the time. We go in different directions, some forward, some backward, but the main thing to do is keep moving. I no longer have to “worry” about [him] reading my blog as he told me he doesn’t anymore. So, since I feel the safest here, it’s a good way to through my thoughts out to the universe and let her do with them as she feels. I’m not sure how 8 weeks with someone can change your life, but for me it did. It made me more cautious about love. I wish I knew in the beginning that I was merely just a “thing” for [him] to “try out” in his life. I guess perhaps a check mark in his bucket list. There are days I don’t even think about him, and then there are days which I keep looking at my phone or checking my email to see if he would just once ask how I’m doing. I know that will never happen.
I’ve decided to move to Annapolis since it’s closer by the water (which brings me serenity) and also, it’s near the military men. I know, I know…but there hasn’t been too much luck with civilians. I’m not looking for a relationship now, but I do hope one comes my way soon. It’s what I need to do right now in my life. I need to find that one guy who will entertain me and spend time with me and together we can enjoy each others company. I want to find that one guy who made me feel like [he] did. It will happen, I know…I’ll find him, but I must go where the fish are and keep moving.
Overall, life is pretty good for me with a lot of changes and positive changes. Change isn’t easy, but I will do whatever IT is to be happy in life. God has chosen me to be happy and why would I want to let him down? I wouldn’t and I’m not about to.
I’m not sure which direction my chapter in my life will take me, but one thing is for sure…I’m moving.
Until Next Time,
Nikki
PS. Feel free to leave me a comment, comments do not get posted automatically until I decide to approve them.
Dear Anonymous,
God speed my friend…God speed.
PS. I chose not to post your comment because I felt it may have been too personal to publish. If I have your permission to publish I will, but that's up to you.
Nikki
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