I started writing this post 5 times ago and erased everything I had written. Tears drip down my cheeks as I write this blog. They are not tears of sadness nor tears of joy, they’re tears of realization. For once in my life, the man I love I no longer want to share with you in my posts. For many years, you’ve read about my relationships whether on my facebook page  or my other posts on my blog. This time, it’s different…completely different…and it scares the shit out of me.

My current relationship is unlike any other I have ever experienced and it’s the most surreal, raw, truthful, sexy, natural relationship I have been in. I don’t want to share anything with you about it because it’s THAT special to me. I hope that doesn’t make me a bad person for being selfish with this one, but I gotta tell ya…he’s changed me in a way I never new existed. I pray that what I have now and what’s unraveling before my eyes is as real as it feels…

Until Next Time,
Much Love,
Nikki